bravo boys! 5:1 and 0:2 against go ahead eagles = de bv veendam in round 2 of the play offs. premier league starter excelsior rotterdam is coming to town now and i know we are ready. in a situation like this, there is nothing more precious than in truth having no pressure. take two.

my knee made dozens of small steps forward during these weeks. yesterday it made a step back, without its fault. it was my responsibility and i'm sorry. i went back home and felt angry, not for the first time, but for the last. defeating the dragons in my knee is a fight. a fight against the pain, against time and a fight with and against my passion for this sport in the same moment. my rage is gone today, because i know myself. yesterday can't beat today and especially not tomorrow. and i am going to be where the pictures in my head already are.

i collected some material during my training time in austria. there will be a film about these steps forward and back and forward. watch the defeating-dragons-trailer (wmv, 2,542 KB). and kneever give up.

defeating the dragon in my ligament. in case of interest, visit my website second of july. trainings and thoughts. take care.

such an important game tonight, happy ending included. we are back on track, not only because of the 2:1-win against stormvogels telstar. furthermore we showed our male chests for the first time since weeks. men at work, at least in parts, but definitely a big step forward. in every direction. bravo boys!

optimism should never steal your head. or better call it enthusiasm? my knee is stable, for the first time since october. not yet as strong as it has to be finally, but almost. since two days, i am able to train with the most wonderful toy again. a ball. a pitch. a perspective. what more do you need to be thankful? not much.

why goalkeepers should focus on their hands: tricky (wmv, 959 KB)

some days of agrarblog silence, due to a big exam this week. nothing much happening basically, enjoying life and the fact, that my knee is improving steadily. after working in the gym for several weeks - pushing weights, cycling and doing stabilisations - i am going to restart aquatraining on tuesday and running on friday, which both represent quite decisive steps in the recovering process. i am looking forward to seeing, how everything will react within the next weeks. /// during a reha phase there are also things you might sometimes underestimate. like yesterday, when i was confronted with the sympathy of veendam. during a signature hour in the city, much people came to me to buoy up, which really meant a nice and powering support to me. thx a lot.

fc groningen against ajax amsterdam. always nice to be in euroborg, this great multifunctional stadium featuring cinema, college and supermarket. today of course football highlife, when big ajax is coming to town. groningen, starting brilliantly, leading 2-0 after the first half (goals: levchenko, suarez). but suddenly, after the break, the impressive personality of jaap stam brings the boys from the capitol back to life. finally, ajax turns the wedstrijd and wins 3-2 (stam, heitinga, leonardo) and leaves groningen disappointed.

this one i didn't know... lothar matthäus: "gewollt hätt' ich schon, aber gedurft haben sie mich nicht lassen." großes kino.

can you give me solid ground cause all my footsteps turn me down... close your eyes and think of something. or better dream. dream of a knee that is working. or at least that tells you what's wrong with it. what it needs. what you have to do. my life for this dream.